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but everyday that it gets closer to the baby coming, i dont care…my man treats me wonderfully, he takes care of me as if i was his wifey, and he loves me so much. i love looking into his eyes and seeing the love he has. i love it when he pulls me onto his lap (even tho my prego body is probably a lot for him to handle) and holds me and baby, i love how he gives up any time i want him to spend with me or baby helping me get everything ready, i love how he quickly jumps up to help me with whatever i need, hes quick to take care of me esp when it comes to me being clumsy and falling or getting hurt there is NO hesitation whatsoever, i love how he understands when all i do ALL day is sleep instead of getting our to do list done, he cooks for me, he does everything and anything for me just to keep me happy and a smile on my face…hes the one that when im having those rough days or patches of days where i just randomly cry and feel depressed, hes the one to get me out of it, hes the one to put that smile and laugh back in me….hes soooooo good to me. and one day i want to get married…but i can be patient.
I mean I know she messaged you, and you deleted it. But that has nothing to do with it, it doesn’t even really bother me anymore, if you aren’t gonna be completely honest and open that’s fine. I can’t handle right now, cuz i know the only reason you deleted it was bc you said imy, or promised to text, or talked about me. I want to know but idk if I can handle…
I don’t understand why it’s so hard to be honest. Idk, I don’t care anymore. What I care about is that I’m starting to just back off from everything and everyone, and I can’t place my finger on it. Don’t tell me that it’s bc of you, bc honestly it’s not. I’ve started feeling this way before I knew about what I said above, I just hold everything in, bc sometimes I just need you to sit with me, hold me and tell me everything is ok…when I randomly burst out in tears, don’t assume it’s cuz I’m mad, I’m just emotionally on the rocks. I have NO motivation to move forward and try anymore. YOU help me get up, YOU help me smile (even if it is forced and only occasionally, it’s more then it would be if you didn’t try to make me smile). I can’t quite put into words how I feel, I just know I really need time a lone with you, even if it’s just you lying by me, or staying in with me, going on dates with me, or just stayin in watching movies and playing video games and stuff. I’m sorry that I can’t control how I feel or how I display my emotions, I just really need you to be there by my side like you always have, but just be really patient please….I have never felt this way before and I don’t know how to shake it…I really want to give in and give up, but I’m trying so very hard to push forward and to stay strong…
Ps. I miss smiling, and laughing… And seeing your eyes twinkle every time you look at me.. Stay happy, bc I feed off of your happiness too, don’t give up on me, or in general, stay strong bc I’m slowly crumbling..
Full tank of gas ⛽ thanks to the cash card my mom gave me 😊 (Taken with instagram)
Mama San frosting cookies for Easter haha (Taken with instagram)
NY berry cheesecake shake. Thank goodness my manager has a sweet tooth too! (Taken with instagram)
Mm got myself a pick me up treat 😊 (Taken with instagram)
Sometimes I wake up with no motivation, but he’s the only one to get me out of bed and ready to take on another day. Looks like I’m in a funky mood, probably bc I’m feeling a tad sick :(. (Taken with instagram)